We are officially one month out from our wedding day. It’s surreal. We’ve been planning this moment since our engagement in January of 2016. And let’s be honest – I’ve been planning this day my whole life…
Right now, I have a lot of emotions and minimal brain space. It’s crazy that no matter how much people tell you, until you go through it yourself, the last two months before the wedding get chaotic – and the chaos won’t stop until every item related to your wedding (including thank yous) is complete. It’s a messy, wonderful type of chaos though. And while all those tiny details seem to matter, in the end, I’ve been looking to what it means: our marriage and our forever with each other. As long as my dear friends and family can be there with us to witness and celebrate this day, then truly nothing else matters.
My emotions:
A lot of highs – a lot of adrealine pushing me through the final details. Pushing me through every last workout. Pushing me to make more decisions and remember to make final payments. Pushing me through when I feel burnt out.
Some sadness too – I recently had a moment where I realized I will only be “Rachel Trampel” for a few more weeks. Rachel Trampel has been my identity for the past 29 years… and it’s a bit sad to know I’m letting go of something that’s been part of me for so long. Don’t get me wrong, I am beyond excited to take my fiancé’s last name – but with most things in life, it is always hard to let go.I’m still debating if I want to move Trampel to be a part of my middle name or if I simply want a small tatoo as a reminder… any suggestions for me or advice on how to cope with your name transition?! Again, I will be clear that even though I’ve been up, down and all around the last name debate throughout my life, I want to and am ready to be Rachel Sobieck!
And the stress – This has come and gone in waves. I’m feeling better because I FINALLY feel like I see the light at the end of the tunnel. Some things will come up and I’ll have zero control over them – and I am OKAY with that. There are many things that won’t be as I perfectly pictured them – but it will still be wonderful. I think this will continue to come and go until a few days before, where I’ll put my hands and say – it is what it is – and just happniess.
A whole lot of love – my heart feels so full – through all of the help I’ve received, through all of the friends and family who are excited to partake in the day – and of course, thinking about walking down the aisle, arm in arm with my father – looking ahead to my fiancé, my soon-to-be husband and how I will feel in that moment. How I will feel when we see each other for the first time for our “first look”. What it will be like to be on the dance floor together as husband and wife dancing in front of our people. Love. SO much love. It’s undescribable…
This moment, which for awhile seemed so far away, is so close – and I can’t wait to cherish every single second of it. To my fiance Joe… I love you, I cannot wait to marry you in one month, I cannot wait to be your wife!
5 Comments
Rach
September 14, 2017 at 6:46 AMSo exciting!! I felt the same way too before my wedding!!
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Rachel
September 14, 2017 at 9:01 AMThank you Rach! I can’t wait – we are kind of in the boat of being ready to quote on quote, have it be here – just so we can get through all of the planning and onto the actual marriage/fun!
Anna
September 14, 2017 at 10:01 AMI didn’t want to drop my last name, so I ended double barreling it to have 2 last names. Part of me would’ve preferred to have just kept my name, part wishes we’d both double barreled our names, sometimes it takes a bit for people to get that I do actually have two last names with no hyphen, and then I’m occasionally annoyed that I now have to actually spell out my last name with regularity, but overall it was the best solution for me. Otherwise, I’ve had a lot of colleagues add it to their middle name too and they seem to like it as it keeps the name but reduces any complications that can arise from the double barreled last names.
The last month before the wedding is just what you described – a lot of last minute stress but also a lot of fun getting excited about it. So exciting being so close!
Rachel
September 14, 2017 at 10:55 AMAnna, thank you so much for your comment! It seems to be a big decision and difficult to do something that makes sense… I would get frustrated too if people didn’t understand that you have two last names with no hyphens! I bet it gets old to spell it out all the time too… but I love that you decided to have two last names 🙂 I really like the idea of adding Trampel to my middle name, and as you said with your colleagues, it seems to make it a bit less complicated overall.
And yes, somewhat stressed, but we are definitely SO excited! It’s also great to hear how excited all of our friends and families are!
Anngelik
September 15, 2017 at 9:33 PMThis picture is absolutely beautiful! Congratulations! This is such an exciting time and I cannot wait to see the pictures.
-Anngelik
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