I have debated whether or not I wanted to write down these thoughts and share them on my blog. I am typically a positive person who loves to inspire and spread positive thoughts and attitudes if and when I can. With that said, I usually only share happy moments, celebrations and all the joy fashion brings me on my blog because that’s why I started it. But today I am choosing to take a break from the blog’s purpose to share the parts of life that happen and just plain suck.
Today I am grieving the loss of an amazing woman I was lucky enough to be the granddaughter of. My grandma passed away last night and although my family knew it was coming, it certainly hasn’t made things easier. My grandmother was such an incredibly beautiful woman (inside and out), with a great sense of humor and strong work ethic. She raised seven children… Six of them boys, and knowing my uncles, I can tell you that was no easy task. My mother is a spitting image of her, both in her beauty and personality, and I have to say that has made her passing even harder.
As much as it is painful to deal with losing someone you are close to, it is also painful to know how much the people you love are also hurting because of the loss. Thinking about my cousins, uncles, sisters, mother… makes it hurt even more. And although death is a part of life and I know she is no longer suffering, it is still hard. When my mom’s dad passed away six years ago I was in and out of tears for days, even started bawling during the middle of one of my high school classes. I am a cry baby as is, so my tears are unpredictable. No matter how much I have tried today to focus on other things, my mind keeps coming back to the sadness. That’s why I decided to write this and share with you. Everyone at some point experiences the loss of friends, family or people they love and it will never be easy. Today, I didn’t want to post a normal post and pretend everything is okay. I will be okay, but today (and this week), along with the rest of my family, I need to grieve this loss. I love you grandma, you are forever in our hearts.
molly @ still being mollySeptember 17, 2012 at 10:41 AM
oh gosh, rachel. i am so sorry for your loss. 🙁 please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers
MacaSeptember 17, 2012 at 12:15 PM
I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts 🙂
Gracey at Fashion for GiantsSeptember 17, 2012 at 12:22 PM
Oh, Rachel, I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.
two birdsSeptember 17, 2012 at 12:24 PM
i’m so sorry rachel. you and your family are in my thoughts today. she sounded like an amazing woman.
AmySeptember 17, 2012 at 12:30 PM
I’m so sorry, Rachel. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Always MayleeSeptember 17, 2012 at 12:35 PM
Oh no Rachel. I am so sorry to hear this. You and your family are in my thoughts.
Bethie the BooSeptember 17, 2012 at 12:57 PM
Oh honey I am so sorry to hear this! You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers and I send you hugs!
LoriSeptember 17, 2012 at 9:38 PM
Rachel, I’m so sorry, I am very close with my Gram as well and even though it’s expected, it’s still going to be hard when she passes. I know that there aren’t words that can make you feel better right now but know that I’m thinking of you and sending comforting thoughts your way. It was so great meeting you on Saturday and whenever you’re feeling up to it, lets have a puppy and coffee date and cheer each other up! Xo Lori
AmySeptember 18, 2012 at 8:41 AM
so sorry for your loss, praying for you and your family
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Elle seesSeptember 18, 2012 at 12:05 PM
bless your heart. I know what you’re going through. I lost my great grandmother, sugar, who was my heart. I’m just glad to know that she’s in heaven happy with no more suffering.
Cate @ Wild RuffleSeptember 18, 2012 at 2:47 PM
I’m so sorry to read this! I lost my grandmother last year, and I know how painful that can be. What a great thing to hold on to though – the memories of what sounds like an amazing woman!
JessicaSeptember 18, 2012 at 3:36 PM
Sorry to hear about your loss 🙁 I haven’t had to go through this yet and can only imagine how hard this must be. Hang in there and you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Daisy NguyenSeptember 19, 2012 at 9:29 PM
A relationship with a grandma is a very special bond – something that you will always look back on fondly. Take the time you need to reflect and grieve, and we, your readers, will be here for you when you get back! I have lost both of mine, and I know the heartbreak that it is. ((HUGS))
-Daisy Nguyen from PS BANANAS fashion blog:
JenniferSeptember 20, 2012 at 3:35 PM
Oh girl, I’m so sorry to hear this. I lost my grandpa when I was 13 and that was extremely difficult. I never met my dad’s parents as one passed when he was a teenager, and the other in Vietnam before I had a chance to travel there. Cherish your memories and hopefully those will help ease your grief. Thinking of you!
NormaSeptember 21, 2012 at 8:50 PM
I am deeply sorry for your loss. I pray for inner strength for you and your family.
RachelSeptember 22, 2012 at 10:00 PM
I’m so sorry =[
This is life though. She is in a better place and moving on with the memories of her will make you stronger, feel better! I know it’s tough!
IliyanaSeptember 23, 2012 at 6:15 AM
EmilySeptember 23, 2012 at 7:29 PM
Rachel, I am so sorry to hear about your grandma. Sending hugs your way!
SamanthaSeptember 25, 2012 at 9:40 PM
I’m so sorry for your loss. That is such a hard thing to deal with, and I think only time can make it better. Try to remember all the positive things about your grandmother, and keep them close in your heart. Praying for you and your family.